Missing Bruiser

I think I've professed my crush on Bruiser on here before. The fact that she was MY girl and that I really just wanted to "eat her up".

Well, lately she has starting telling me "Mommy, I don't love you anymore", which, I know is just her trying out her newfound 3 year old independence, but it still hurts nonetheless.

She is also turning just a tad bit MEAN! She has temper tantrums and kicks and, at times, has an all around bad attitude.

So, I'm depressed. I miss my sweet, funny Bruiser. I really want her back. This Bruiser has me imagining all sorts of future scenarios, most of them including a 16 year old Bruiser who dates 30 year old men on motorcycles, cusses like a sailor and drinks whiskey straight-up.

I really don't understand it. I've been very cognizant of the whole "middle child" syndrome ever since we found out Little Lovely was on the way. We don't compare Bruiser to the Princess. I know all of Bruiser's favorite things and make sure she doesn't only have hand me downs. She gets plenty of alone quality time.

Please God, just make this be a stage!!!


So, to give Bruiser AND us a break, she is currently having her very own sleepover with her grandparents...and it is killing me. I miss her like crazy...tantrums and all.

It was so peaceful and quiet without her here. Not a single tear was shed. The Princess played games with her dad and then got her OWN pjs on and said she was tired and went to bed. Little Lovely was grouchy, but the poor thing is cutting all of her incisors at once. She never once cried from being knocked down or having her hair pulled.

My husband and I looked at each other last night and at the same time said, "Isn't it TOO quiet around here?" So, we now know who the rabble-rouser is in the family...and I miss her.